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Martha's avatar

Before I got pregnant with my kiddo I had been trying intermittently to cut down on my drinking. I stocked the fridge with seltzer, drank less when I went out with friends, etc. But I was running *away* from drinking. It felt like a loss to be filled. When I got pregnant with my son - and esp. after he was born - not drinking no longer felt like a loss. I knew that continuing to drink would, for me, mean that I would enjoy our time together less. Running toward him has resulted in me having no interest in drinking since.

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Julia D.'s avatar

I really, really love your insight here, and it was clever to tie it into Matthew as well.

"'Nor did it much matter, he thought; he had not chosen to come here. He had been driven, and now was driven on.'"

"Ged fears that when his shadow overtakes him, it will hollow him out and make him a thing that it wields in the service of its own, dark ends. But in my reading, in Ged’s grim hopelessness, he’s already emptying himself out, anticipating surrender."

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